Rambling
I don't even have a title for this post. It's really just rambling of what I'm going through right now. But I need to get it out - to share my feelings, to share the frustration. Maybe someone else out there is going through something similar.
It's not a post with answers. It's a post with questions. It's a post from a mind that sometimes questions its soul's value.
Do you think God is disappointed in us when we cannot take on the burden of others? I mean really take them on? I'm running into that situation at my work. I'm expected to do a certain job that others apparently cannot do. The thing is, I can't do it for myself and for everyone else. And I'm tired. I'm frustrated. I don't mind doing my share, but I can't do their share, too. I'm tired of having this expected of me. I've talked to management. I've gone as far as I can in with this particular location, It does no good. And I'm always looked at as the bad guy because I can't do my job and the job of others, too.
I struggle with this, because all of my life I have been taught we lay down our lives for others. I've been taught to consider others higher than myself. And I believe that. But is that what it means? Is God angry when I cannot do it all?
Like I said, this is more a post of questions than answers. Sometimes I think I just need to get out of this situation.
It's not a post with answers. It's a post with questions. It's a post from a mind that sometimes questions its soul's value.
Do you think God is disappointed in us when we cannot take on the burden of others? I mean really take them on? I'm running into that situation at my work. I'm expected to do a certain job that others apparently cannot do. The thing is, I can't do it for myself and for everyone else. And I'm tired. I'm frustrated. I don't mind doing my share, but I can't do their share, too. I'm tired of having this expected of me. I've talked to management. I've gone as far as I can in with this particular location, It does no good. And I'm always looked at as the bad guy because I can't do my job and the job of others, too.
I struggle with this, because all of my life I have been taught we lay down our lives for others. I've been taught to consider others higher than myself. And I believe that. But is that what it means? Is God angry when I cannot do it all?
Like I said, this is more a post of questions than answers. Sometimes I think I just need to get out of this situation.
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